Rapture: A Novel of The Fallen Angels Page 7

  The place was already noisy, with people talking and rushing around, and the chaos calmed her nerves—in the same way that taking a yoga class made her jumpy.

  Sitting down at her desk, she checked her voicemail, signed into her e-mail, and grabbed the mug she had been using since she’d inherited the desk a little over a year and half ago. Heading over to the communal kitchen, she had one of six coffeepots to choose from: None of them were decaf; three of them were just plain old Maxwell House; and the others were that stinky hazelnut crap or that femme-y macchiato-whatever-the-hell it was called.

  Big whatever on the latter. If she wanted a damn caramel sundae, she’d get one for lunch. That stuff did not belong in a coffee mug.

  As she poured her basic black, she thought about the mug’s true owner, Beth Randall, the reporter who’d sat in that cubicle for…well, it must havc been just over two years. One afternoon, the woman had left and never come back. Mels had been sorry about the disappearance—not that she’d known her colleague all that well—and felt badly to finally get a dedicated spot to sit in under those circumstances.

  She’d kept the mug for no particular reason. But now, as she took a sip from it, she realized it was in the hopes that the woman returned. Or at the very least, was okay.

  Looked like she was surrounded by missing people.

  Or at least it felt that way this morning. Especially when she thought of the man from the night before—the one who she was never going to see again, and couldn’t seem to forget.

  This was not his house.

  As the taxi pulled over in front of a ranch in a modest neighborhood, Matthias knew he didn’t live under its roof. Hadn’t. Wouldn’t.

  “You gettin’ out or not?”

  Matthias met the driver’s eyes in the rearview. “Gimme a minute.”

  “Meter’s running.”

  Nodding, he got out and relied on his cane as he went up the front walk, swinging his bad leg in a wide circle so he didn’t have to bend his knee. Things were hardly Home Sweet Home: There was a branch down in the scrubby hedge that ran under the bay window. The lawn was scruffy. Weeds had sprouted in the gutters, reaching for the sun so high above.

  The front door was locked, so he cupped his hands and looked into the windows on either side. Dust bunnies. Mismatched furniture. Sagging drapes.

  There was a cheapo tin mailbox screwed into the bricks, and he opened the top. Circulars. A coupon book addressed to “Occupant.” No bills, credit card applications, letters. The only other piece of mail was an AARP magazine that had the same name as that of the driver’s license he’d been given.

  Matthias rolled the mag up, shoved it into his windbreaker, and headed back to the cab. Not only was this not his residence, nobody lived here. Best guess was that the person had died within, say, four to six weeks—long enough so that the family had cleaned up the accounts payable issues, but before they emptied the place out to put it on the market.

  Getting into the cab, he stared straight ahead.

  “Where to now?”

  With a groan, Matthias shifted over and got out his wallet. Sliding Mels Carmichael’s business card free, he was struck by an overriding conviction that he shouldn’t involve the woman.

  Too dangerous.

  “What’ll it be, pal?”

  But shit, he had to start somewhere. And his brain was like an Internet connection gone bad.

  “Trade Street,” he gritted out.

  As they headed for the downtown area and got caught in a net of traffic, he stared into the other cars and saw people drinking coffee, talking to passengers, stopping at red lights, going on green. Totally foreign to him, he thought. The kind of life where you nine-to-five’d your way into a grave at the age of seventy-two was not how he’d lived.

  So what was, he asked his dumb-ass gray matter. What the fuck was?

  All he got back was a headache while he strained for an answer.

  As the Caldwell Courier Journal facility came into view, he took out one of the ten twenties in the wallet. “Keep the change.”

  The cabdriver seemed more than happy to get rid of him.

  Taking up res on the periphery of the front doors, Matthias loitered in the sunshine, being careful not to meet any stares—and there were a lot of them: For some reason, he tended to attract attention, usually from women—then again, the Florence Nightingale stuff was something the fairer sex was known for, and he did have scars on his face.

  Ooooooh, romantic.

  Eventually, he took cover across the street at the bus stop, parking it on the hard plastic bench and breathing in the secondhand smoke from people impatient for their public trans to arrive. The waiting didn’t bother him. It was as if he were used to lurking, and to pass the time he played a game, memorizing the faces of the people who came and went out of the CCJ offices.

  He was extremely good at it. One look was all it took, and he had the person in his database.

  At least his short-term memory was working—

  The double doors pushed wide, and there she was.

  Matthias sat up straighter as the sunlight hit her hair and all kinds of copper showed. Mels Carmichael, associate reporter, was with a heavyset guy who had to hitch his khakis up higher around his hips before they hit the steps. The two appeared to be arguing back and forth about something in the way friends did, and when Mels smiled, it appeared as if she had won whatever debate—

  Like she knew he was watching, she glanced across the street, and stopped dead. Touching her buddy on the sleeve, she said something, and then parted ways with the man, cutting through the traffic, coming over.

  Matthias plugged his cane into the pavement, and tugged his rags into place as he stood. He had no idea why he wanted to look better for her, but he did—then again, hard to look worse. His clothes weren’t his, his cologne was Eau d’Hospital Soap, and he’d washed his hair with the antibacterial stuff, because that was all he’d had.

  Naturally, his bad eye, that ugly, ruined thing, was what she looked at first. How could she not?

  “Hi,” she said.

  Man, she looked great in her normal everyday clothes, those slacks and that wool jacket and the cream scarf she wore loose around her neck looking runway fine, as far as he was concerned.

  Still no wedding ring.

  Good, he thought for no apparent reason.

  Shifting his gaze to the right, so maybe his defect wouldn’t be so obvious, he returned the “Hi.”

  Well, shit, now what. “I’m not stalking you, I swear.” Liar. “And I would have called, but I’ve got no phone.”

  “It’s okay. Do you need something? The police called me this morning with a follow-up, and I think they were still planning on speaking with you?”

  “Yeah.” He let that one stand where it was. “Listen, I…”

  The fact that he was leaving a sentence hanging seemed very unnatural, but his brain just wasn’t producing.

  “Let’s sit down,” she said, gesturing to the seat. “I can’t believe they let you out.”

  At that moment, a bus showed up, rumbling to a halt and blocking the sun, its hot diesel breath making him cough. As the pair of them settled on the bench, they kept quiet while the kibitzers filed on their ride.

  When the bus kept going, the sunlight reappeared, bathing her in a yellow light.

  For some stupid reason, his eyes started blinking hard.

  “What can I do for you?” she asked softly. “Are you in pain?”

  Yes. But it wasn’t physical. And it got worse whenever he looked at her. “How do you know I need help?”

  “I’m guessing your memory didn’t magically come back.”

  “No, it hasn’t. But that’s not your fault.”

  “Well, I hit you. So I owe you.”

  He made a motion to his lower body. “I was like this before.”

  “Can you remember anything? Prior to the accident, I mean.” As he shook his head, she murmured, “A lot of servicemen have come
back in your condition.”

  Ah…as in Army, Navy, Air Force, Marines, he thought. And part of that fit. The government…yes, he’d had something to do with the Department of Defense, or national security…or…

  But he wasn’t a Wounded Warrior. Because he hadn’t been a hero.

  “They found my wallet,” he blurted.

  “Oh, that’s great.”

  For some reason he gave it to her.

  As she opened the thing and looked at the driver’s license, she nodded. “That’s you.”

  Focusing on the Caldwell Courier Journal emblem that hung over the door she’d walked out of, he said, “Look, all this is off the record, okay?”

  “Absolutely.”

  “And I wish I had another option. I wish…I don’t want to get you in trouble.”

  “You haven’t asked me to do anything yet.” She stared at him. “What do you have in mind?”

  “Can you find out who that is?” He pointed to the driver’s license. “Because it’s not me.”

  In the silence that followed, all Mels could think about was the fact that she’d been so sure she’d never see the man again.

  Guess fate had other plans.

  Sitting beside her, he was dressed in black, a big, super-lean male who gave off a tough-to-the-core vibe with his narrowed eyes and his strong jaw…and yet nonetheless appeared ashamed of his scars and his handicap.

  Looking back down at the driver’s license, she frowned. The picture seemed legit, the holograms where they should be, height, weight, and DOB okay, the address right here in Caldwell—not far from her mother’s house, as a matter of fact.

  He’d probably been on his way home when she’d hit him. Just like her.

  Refocusing on the man, as opposed to the image, she had the sense that he was swallowing his pride big-time by coming to her. This was not someone who liked to rely on others, but clearly his life had put him in a place where he had no other choice.

  No memory. Few resources.

  And with his haunted stare and patched-up body, he had to be a serviceman, back from the war only physically, not in spirit or mind or emotion.

  Naturally, the reporter in her liked nothing better than a good mystery—and the fact that she had some culpability in this amnesia he had going on was another reason to jump in feetfirst. But she wasn’t stupid. She didn’t want to get sucked up into some kind of drama, especially if he was delusional or paranoid.

  The picture was him, no doubt.

  “I hate putting you in this position.” His long, sure hands stroked the cane that he balanced on his thigh. “But I don’t have anyone else, and the house at that address? It’s not mine. I can’t tell you where I do live, but I’m damn certain it’s not there. And I checked the mail when I went over.” He leaned to the side, grimacing while he took out a rolled-up magazine. “I found this. Name’s right, except I’m not over fifty-five. Why would this be in my mailbox, addressed to me?”

  She unfolded the thing, the AARP logo looming over a picture of a gracefully aging model in athletic gear. The name on the address was Matthias Hault, and the number and street were the same as what was on the license…except he could have lived with his father and shared the same name.

  Although wouldn’t dads have been glad to see his son show up on the front doorstep?

  “I could go to a private investigator,” he said, “but that costs money, and right now, I’ve got two hundred dollars to my name—well, one eighty after I paid the cabdriver.”

  “Are you sure there isn’t someone looking for you?” When he remained quiet, she assumed he was searching that void of memory she’d saddled him with. “What did the doctors say? Again, to be honest, I’m shocked you’re up and around.”

  “So will you help me?” he countered.

  That firm line in the sand was something to respect. But she walked over it. “If I do, you’re going to have to talk to me. What do the doctors think?”

  His good eye traveled around, as if he were looking for an out. “I left AMA.”

  “What? Why?”

  “It didn’t feel safe. And I can’t give you any more than that. It’s all I have.”

  PTSD, she thought. Had to be.

  Maybe if she confirmed his identity, it would set his mind to rest, and help with the recovery.

  “Okay, I’ll do what I can,” she said.

  He hung his head, like turning to someone else was a kind of defeat. “Thank you. And all I need is a search on this name. A starting place.”

  “I can go back inside and do this at my desk right now.” She nodded off to the right. “There’s a diner down by the river, about two blocks away. You can get yourself something to eat and I’ll meet you there ASAP. Ah…assuming you can—”

  “I can make it,” he gritted out.

  Or he’d die trying, she thought, measuring the straight angle of his jaw.

  Which happened to be very Jon Hamm, as a matter of fact.

  The man shoved himself off the bench with the help of his cane. “I’ll see you when you get there—and don’t worry about rushing.”

  As he looked down the street, the light got in his eyes, both the one that he could obviously see out of and the one he couldn’t.

  “Would you like my sunglasses?” she asked. “They’re Ray-Bans, about as unisex as you can get. No prescription, either.”

  She didn’t wait for him to tough-guy it and tell her no. She took the case out of her purse and put it forward.

  Matthias Hault stared at what she offered for the longest time, as if the simple gesture was a foreign language to him.

  “Take them,” she said softly.

  His hand shook a little as he accepted the case, and he didn’t look her in the eye again. “I won’t scratch them. And I’ll give them back at the diner.”

  “No hurry.”

  When he put the shades on, they transformed his face into something…undeniably dangerous.

  And unrelentingly sexual.

  A shaft went through the center of Mels’s body, hitting her in a place that hadn’t been alive for the longest time.

  “Better?” he said roughly.

  “I think so.”

  He was still refusing to look at her, his shoulders and spine set straight, the lines of his mouth tight. Such a proud man, trapped in a position of weakness…

  She was always going to remember this moment, she thought for no apparent reason. Yes, this moment now, as the sunshine fell upon his harsh, handsome face.

  This was a rabbit hole, she realized. This seemingly random intersection between the two of them was going to change things forever.

  “There’s something I’ve wanted to ask you,” he said.

  “What,” she whispered, caught up in a moment she did not understand.

  “Where did the accident happen?”

  Shaking herself, she pulled her brain back to reality. “It was, ah, just outside of the Pine Grove Cemetery. Close to where I live—not far from the neighborhood your house is in.”

  “A cemetery.”

  “That’s right.”

  As he nodded and started walking in the direction of the restaurant, she could have sworn he said, “Now, why is that not a surprise.”

  As dives went, the Riverside Diner was right out of central casting. Naugahyde booths, gingham curtains, waitresses with aprons and attitudes. Food was greasy but in a glorious way, and as Matthias cut into his yellow scrambled eggs with a stainless fork, his stomach grumbled like it had been years since he’d had solid food.

  It was late for breakfast, but nothing went better with coffee than eggs and bacon.

  As he consumed his meal, the sunglasses his reporter had given him were a godsend, allowing him to keep track of the people coming and going, and the waitresses moving around, and who went into the bathrooms and how long they stayed.

  Except surveillance hadn’t been why Mels had given them to him.

  Damn it. What was it about that woman that made him want
to be whole again?

  “More coffee?” the waitress asked at his elbow.

  “Yeah, please.” He pushed his cup over and she poured from the pot, steam curling up. “And another round of everything else, too.”

  She smiled like she was calculating a bigger tip. “You’re a good eater.”

  When you don’t know the when/where of your next meal, you better be, he answered in his head.

  His reporter came in just after he’d finished breakfast number two. She looked left and then right; when she saw him sitting all the way down by the emergency exit, she started the long trek past a number of empty booths.

  As she sat across from him, her cheeks were red, like she’d rushed. “It must have been crowded when you came in.”

  “It was.” Bullshit—he’d wanted to be near the back in case he needed to get out in a hurry.

  The waitress came over with the pot again. “Good to see ya—coffee?”

  “Yes, please.” Mels shrugged off her coat. “And my usual.”

  “Lunch or breakfast?”

  “Lunch.”

  “Comin’ up.”

  “You eat here a lot?” he said, wondering why he cared.

  “Two, three times a week since I started at the paper.”

  “And how long ago was that?”

  “A million years.”

  “Funny, you don’t look like a dinosaur.”

  Smiling a little, she took a pull off her coffee cup and got ready for business, her mouth thinning, her lids lowering.

  Man…she looked hot like that. The intensity. The focus. In this moment, she reminded him of himself—

  And wasn’t that a miracle, given that he had about as much information on the both of them—and she was a stranger.

  “Tell me,” he demanded.

  “You’re dead.”

  “And here I just thought I felt that way.”

  During the pause that followed, he could sense her trying to read him. “You’re not surprised,” she said.

  He looked into his half-empty cup and shook his head. “I knew there was something wrong at that house.”

  “The man who had that name for real was eighty-seven and died of congestive heart failure five weeks ago.”

  “As false identities go, it’s not a very good one, is it.”